From This: Our First Kiss
It is late in the Fisher home. Prestton is super easy to lay down at night, Trynnity will just keep going until you place her in bed and the big girls just finished up a movie. So here I am blogging. Billy is working his new job and the adjustments have been extra hard on me. Returning to work and raising our four beautiful children "on my own" was not the original plan. But I should not be surprised, nothing has ever really been planned for me. I have always been a very free spirit and firmly believe that everything in life happens for a reason (only God could ever understand the crazy road map he laid out for me!) This transition has just been a lot harder than I could have ever anticipated. I worry all the time! I do not see him and vice versa. For ten years we have been threaded together... and now I feel lost. Our story started at Chilis. We waited tables together while we were both trying to get through school, and I was a single mom with Baylee. My Chilis "family" would help me out by babysitting her when I had evening classes. We lived vicariously and ended up together at a friend's party. Devynn came ten months later and at the two year mark we tied the knot. Both of us have had common goals and worked our "booties" off to get where we are today never settling. We anxiously awaited the birth of Trynnity in 2006 and completed our family circle with our son Prestton this past year. Every step has been made together. Don't get me wrong, this jump was made with hands held tightly and me shutting my eyes. I know that we will come out on top and be stronger- we have made it over many speed bumps. Some how I will find that inner strength to be the supportive, loving and devoted wife...best friend, because that is what he is to me. And I know many of you have husbands that are in a similar boat, this is just sooooo new to me. I think if there was less stress in other areas of my life this would be a bit easier??!! Who knows, it is what it is and I should be greatful we have stability with the way things are right now (hmmm, maybe that will be part of my silver lining). I am eternally greatful for the support I get from my friends and family- you are all the best! Thank you! And with a big hug, kiss and goodnight prayer I am off for some R & R in my big fluffy bed and tivo while awaiting for my Prince to come home.
To This: Our Wedding Day
2 comments:
This was very sweet. You can just feel how much love there is between you and Billy. It is hard to be "alone", but you have a good attitude about it. Keep your head up!
Hang in there babe! It will get better. I understand stress and worry. I'm always thinking about you, even though I suck at calling. *HUGS*
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